| fwetgn |
[Dec. 24th, 2004|12:56 am] |
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| |  crappy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | NOTHING | ] |
fuck i wrote like 34y583y6408760976 hours worth of shit and it didnt get save
so fuck you all no im kidding i love you
merry Christmahanakwanzuka !!!
yea..when i feel like writing again i will |
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| no qiero nada |
[Dec. 16th, 2004|01:46 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  fuck you | ] |
| [ | music |
| | anti-flag angry you n poor some shit like that | ] |
i just want o be with genia n ginia an holly n evan an my close friends no one fucking else love you all but i miss them...im tierd of the bull shit at my house..no were not fucking perfect not what my neighbors think fuck the high cloass mother fucker my mom wants me to meet hes super gorgesu but fuck him i dont want money or riches i want love and i have it..with tim..and my simple world with simple ppl were who gives a fuck about anuything any more..because fuck i dont..going to usf is alright i get invitefd to plenty of keggers lol..i ran away for a total of like 10 hours and noticed i had no place to go so i went home..nothing was said..they were already fuckinh asleep..i dont care any more..not even enough to slit my wrists for it.lol..fuck that..ive stoped careing and i need a stoge ..im gunna go and do that..i lovw you all...im sick once agin thanks to justin n tim n collien and laura and pat ass lol..yea were all sick..
wtf..is the predator i looked that bitch up..and its not what them niggas told me it was w.e lol..im so young poor and angry
-drea
i dont want to be a high class glamour girl that she wants me to be..i just want to breath n be me |
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| ..tomalo como una carta de amor |
[Dec. 10th, 2004|11:21 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  envious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | anti-flag ; emo sucks | ] |
life sucks
jimmy eats corn and i dont care>><>lalalalala...dum song
oh yea..schools going good..i havnt been able to start my algebra classes
but fuck it...ive had a lot of time to think and to appriceate things..
i really miss seeing everyone everyday but oh well life goes on..
i hope ppl miss me..but its very unlikely..since..everyone hates me
i spent the night at ginias and had a lot of fun ..looking at c0ol..stuff
and talking it would of been extra awesome if genia could of been there
i hung out with tim all last night..it was awesome..we hung out with some c0ol kids n blazed on a grave yard..
interesting yea..Marshal lol..whoa..that kid is so funny high..lol..he keept on falling and seeing things..and like..playingg
with fire,,lol.it was awesome..we saw funny looking trees and talked about the chupacabra..and how it runs aound the grave yard at night,,Tim,,peed in the graave yard..and scared the shittt out of me..i almost jumped on top of jeramy lol..he was the closet
persone by me lol..yea then i came home at like 10:15 saw my mom on the garage as usal with a wine glass in her hand,..
we sat and takled but argued half of the time..she said i dont like the whole camping thing ..i asked her why she could never give me a fucking answerr she would just move ir talk about something else..and then hit the subject later..its werid
being at USF every day just because when i walk around alone or with ppl that i no i get treated like a collage student its insane..ppl are like what are you magering in im like uhh..im a littile fucking kid..lol..well i dont say that.i just try to avoid the
question..i got invited to some party..MMM beeeeeer..and there seems to be a tight show tonight at mascerade..my friend matts in a punk band there preety sick..he wants me to go.but theres camping,,and then theres my babii tim..so that seems like a better plan..oh yea..lol...fuck...i never thought id say this but i miss school....i miss my friends...fuck..
-drea |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 6th, 2004|10:50 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  chipper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | danzig= kiss the skull | ] |
1. I _heart___ Genia
2. Genia is _HAWT__.
3. Genia is my _my fucking best friend so touch her and die!___.
4. I want to hugg ____ Genia
5. Genia can __lick__ my ___nuts!_.
6. Genia needs _too drink with me___.
7. Genia can be _a bitch but i love her___.
8. I think Genia should __come over right now to drink with me__.
9. Without Genia I would _probley kill myself or..be a loner that talks about pokemon___.
10. best thing about Genia is _shes there to listen___.
11. worst thing about Genia is _nothing at all___.
12. meeting Genia was __funny as hell__.
13. Genia reminds me of __the twin sister i never had__.
14. someday Genia will _get married and have billions of goofy kids___.
15. I wish Genia would _drop her grape fruit for me____ for me
yea she begged me for like 2 days..so i kinda had to..
i love you all
no i didnt fucking drop out i go to school on the internet..so fuck you all |
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| ..what..do i do who do i belive? |
[Dec. 2nd, 2004|11:10 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  pensive | ] |
| [ | music |
| | dc north: heartbreak (i think its called) | ] |
fuck..
i love him i no i do..hes my everything he makes so happy and he treats me good
but does that mean hes gunna remanise and tell his boys what goes down? when were "together"
i mean its only been once..but still it was speaciel..so speaciel..sure its gunna sound slutty
but when you fuck and your not inlove or you dont feel something for that persone it means nothing
i no these things.he talks to me in sucha way that im like omg..wow..i wanna be with you forever..
i swear, hes all i can think about these days..and i hooe its for along time but..if hes talking about our sex life...bro..i dont like that i like too keep those things privit..he can tell his main home boys..because i sure ass hell would tell my girls but there like my fucking sisters..there not gunna go run there mouth..id hope not..i dont no..thats like a fucking trust thing now...it makes me madd though...because i love tim...and he tells everyone that he loves me..so..i no its true because i can
feel it all over me..in my body in my bones in my soul..in my heart..but..i dont no..whatver they could be rumours..i dont fucking no..::sigh::...sexsexsexsexsexsexsex is so fucking overrated..id be happy just sitting there in his arms holding me kissing my chek
-drea |
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| This is how it ends..all into pieces |
[Nov. 29th, 2004|12:04 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | i need a shower | ] |
| [ | music |
| | led zepplin: dazed n confused | ] |
well..today was awesome for the most part..Tim visited me in school today with collin n justin n Laura!
it was a nice surprise hehe..i had had a shitty science class..and it was nice to see my babys face!
everyone got hair cuts including me this weekend its alright i look like an effing chink but its
straight..jenna! your hair is all short! and genias got awesome bangs and ginia looks mighty
fine with her ahir
steven got a haircutt too its the first time its been that short since i meet the kid like 2 yrs ago
my moms sick agian my dads pissed of at her...and me..he wont talk to me and all he does is yell at her
took her to the doctors today she might have a kidny stone..:(..im not sure ill be here this weekend
sucks aye? im going to miami for a wedding thing a ma bob...yea.im not to interested to go
it will add more to my effing drinking oh well..
i wanna trip im in the mood..lol.funnii.i hate school..im failing everything its like failing fucking life
argg..w.e
im off
-drea |
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| ERES MI TODO..Y YA TE DI MI CORAZON |
[Nov. 27th, 2004|03:43 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | guilty | ] |
| [ | music |
| | anti-flag ; protest song | ] |
i went camping last night with my baby tim trey collin justin laura lil c b-nasty and tifferz and her friend ricki
we sat ariund the camp fire drank corts i cant spell, we talkd and just chilled..it was great.
me n tim..wow..it was a gorgeous night..i wish i could of woken up by your side..with you holding me
thats how it was suppost to be..those sweet words..and those sweet kissses mean so much to me
ive never felt so loved by some one..we laughed and talked and it was just so awesome
you bit me..!!!!!((everyware!!!!!!)) hehe..it was a good night..i came home at 5 in the morning..my dad
and cousin were up..waiting for me..my dad was madd but he didnt really say anything
i have to play it safe for now ..beause i lost my parents respect..and shit that means a lot to me
but last night was worth it..it was one of those nights that im going to tel my kids and my grand kids about
it was deffenetly a great night..loll..except for me n laura had to pee so we went all the way to her house and got stoges wohoo
then went to k-mart cuzz everyone wanted marshmellos..so me n laura thought of getting more food because everyone was drinking and getting fucked up..so there gunna get the munchies..aww how sweet of you dawl!..i saw my neighbor working there
it was kinda weird because i was already hella buzzed...but with my dumb new hair i dont think he could tell it was me any way
ewww he looks a kiddie porn at the club house ewww..alright..my parents rfuse to talk to me..at the moment..but hey..
i no i do shitty things its bot like..im here..saying no ima fucking good kid and i dont do shit no man..i drink i smoke..i do other crazii shit..but hell i dont think that means ima bad fucking kid..my mom hates the way tim dresses she says he looks like a hoodlum..i told her werent you the one to tell me not to judge a book by its cover..she had nothing to say after words..
my familys at tarpoon springs ...haveing a good time with out me..i love going there and they no it..its one of my favorit places to be..i guess thats why they didnt take me..they have been gone for a long time and no one has called...shit..i no there doing this to teach me a fucking lesson...i heard them talking about boot camp...::gulp:: so i kinda have to quit acting like sucha little shit..
i have a head ache..
so im going to lay down..and wish that i was a good kid!
-drea |
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| I'll never tell.. |
[Nov. 23rd, 2004|02:46 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | discontent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | you know..snoop..drop it like its haaawt | ] |
im at home because im here helping my mom do stuff..::sigh:: (( i need a stoge))
its been a long night of me thinking and figureing out what im going to do with my
oh so pathetic life i never was this way before..i used to want my goals..but now its like
i never had any at all..i feel like shit..because i cant do anything.i cant just put
my fucking mind to something and do it and it sucks..i dont even understand why
i fucking hate it im so confused so numb inside that i just dont care aboiu my life
not in the sence ohh life sucks im going to kill myslef..in the sence were i dont no
were im going in life im not sure were the hell im headed..
i need help so bad..but part of me just doesnt care, a big part of me just says
fuck off to all of that.i dont no what to do ive let down my parents...
most importantly ive let down myself..i dont no what im going to do ..right now..
but ball my eyes out and sit here confused..about everything
-drea
protest : save the turkeys 4:30 usf (( you should go its for a fucking good cause!))
...i have nothing to give thanks about im not even american |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 22nd, 2004|09:32 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  amused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ | ] |
interesting...lets see and find out |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 22nd, 2004|09:26 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | crappy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | california party ;2pac | ] |
hahaha..awesome |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 21st, 2004|11:27 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | chipper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | shorty wanna be a thugg : 2pac | ] |
UnAmericanWays (11:25:57 PM): El Drea es mi esclavo del sexo , LMAO Tim..baby..stick to beinf irish
Well...lifes alright
besides the whole Ian thing lol..it was hard but we did it..and it was great..(( hand cuffs)) hehe
I MISS MY LADYS!!!!!!! GINIA N GENIA OHH EVER SO MUCH, and katyas food :(
Alright i have a boy friend and hes great so far we have been going out for sucha little
time but it feels like forever..and some how i think thats a good thing
Honestly hes the first guy to make me feel the same way eddie did..
i know i should forget eddie but he mde me feel sucha way that no one until tim has been
able to do..i like it when he calls me baby..i like his punk boots..i like everything about him
i love his hard core drinking i love shareing a stoge with him hehe..i love the way he holds me
he likes me for me..i can talk to him about love and my dreams..and my hopes..my thoughts.
its sucha awesome feeling..he said no matter what he would always be there..and i some how
know hes not lieing..some how i think its a good thing...ive had a few guys this yr that i thought
i was gunna make it with..but every ones telling me that hes a grear guy and nos how to treat his
ladys..hes a dreamer..i like that a lot..let just say he makes me happy i make him happy
:: crosses fingers:: hope we will last for a long time..im tierd of being unhappy with guys
ive had such shitty luck im bound to have some good luck right?
I <3 Tim...
-DREA |
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| sex is so hard to get |
[Nov. 14th, 2004|10:30 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  flirty | ] |
| [ | music |
| | crazi spanish music (vallenato) | ] |
well i hung out with Virginia and jimmy and ian on friday think it was..from like 10;00 till like 4am lol..
i had a great time..i know virginia did lol..right now im in a state were..i like how everythings going..
ive got 2 awesome best friends..im single and loveing it..im loved..i dont no..im just happy
and it rocks my fucking socks off..im smileing mor..and thats good..
im buying cool sweaters and things for when i go to new york for christmas
i get to play in the snowwwww!! and see some family that i havent seen in ages
its going to be great...
Ian..you left a hot hicky on my kneck that my mom loved! :)
i like all the things we talk about..
i like the shower now more then ever..
trust me..monday dawl..monday..
<33
DREA |
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| YOU WALKED IN MY SHOES FOR ALL THE SAME REASONES |
[Nov. 9th, 2004|12:21 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  peaceful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the used | ] |
so..now i had a phase were i wanted to kill myself..
im sorry..if your best friend of 9yrs..decided to kill
himself..wouldnt you be sadd.? just a little devistated..
my life collapsed..it fell into small pieces..
so thanks for calling it a phase :)..when you slit your
wrisits and said theres no way im going to make it its ok
i admit..it..i didnt no how to handle it..so..i did so many crazii things in my anger
it doesnt matter your life sucks now right? im sorry isnt going to fix the hurt.
Well..as if life could get any worse everythings falling into millions of
endless pieces..i think i stoped caring about anything, im so numb inside.
that nothing hurts me..i dont care anymore..about anything..i say "fuck it"
who cares were all gunna end up either fucked up or dead..it doesnt matter
everything that was going for me is dead.my dreams my future everything,
:: shivers:: you can move away ,and say everything you want to say but running
away from it isnt going to make it better..i no those for a fact.
even though words arent spoken theres a bond there that cant be
ever taken away..id still die for you..i swear..
lifes a waste of time..but im here to stay..
so im just gunna enjoy it..and get high..and hang out with my friends :)
-drea |
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| GOOD EYE SNYPER |
[Nov. 3rd, 2004|11:25 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | mellow | ] |
| [ | music |
| | hotel california :eagles | ] |
well..its late.and im home..im really sick but i have to go to effin skool..
i cant wait for the weekend ..flapp jack!..i really want some funnel cake lol
i went to the doctors to see what the hell is wrong with me.they made me take
billions upon billions of tests from a drug test all the way to a pregnatcie test..
great makes me feel so much better..yuh no?..yea you havent gotten laid but
sure your pregnat..sucks lol..IM NOT THOUGH..durr im so tierd these days
all i do is sleep..and eat..its like im a freaking fat ass. lol..i stayed home today
with Virginia..and her mom..all of us are super sick..and now i think i might even have the effin
flu..exciting right?..ok well my fathers home..and hes bitching because thats all he nos how to do
to any body...just incase.im looking up things like how to build a bomb or something..he thinks im going
to try to take over the world..
yea id prefur hits from the bong
-drea |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 2nd, 2004|05:11 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  naughty | ] |
| [ | music |
| | vindicated youth (yea babii) | ] |
fuck..halloween was great..bow im sick as fuck though and its not even rom mother fucking tanndy
-drea |
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| ICE ICE BABII |
[Oct. 30th, 2004|11:48 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | dirty | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Converge babii | ] |
hung out with my loves skrillex n ginia..sammmmy mutherfuckin cheeks!!..dynamite dustin..and my loveerrr..scotty my hottie
and mr pouring..we had a jolly ol time..hehehe..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEALSEA (31'ST) HAPPY 15~Baby dawll <33333
halloweens tommrow ans who nos what im doing probley skrillexs hizzouse..you know you know
check myspace..cinderellas heart ache,lol..Karina your pics are bootyfull...lol..its addicting isnt it??
brent cut his hurr??? let us see
NO..i dont fucking hate...ok?? so quit acting like the victom..
*DrEa* |
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| nothings worth wild any more |
[Oct. 25th, 2004|07:27 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | frustrated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | THE USED | ] |
im bored.. at the club house...im at the point were im giveing up on everything..there just seems like theres nothing
worth wild any more..i wanna go t colombia ..i miss it there..i miss every prt of it..yea even the violence even though it scars me..i miss it..im freezing just waiting fir the bus to get here..so i can go home...and find out were virginia is..DONT GIVE OUT MY FUCKING FONE NUMBER TO THE FUCKING GUYS THAT FOLLOW YOU AROUND AT SPOT. THATS JUST FUCKED UP.
halloween this weekend..it doesnt even feel like fall..in colombia it would be windy but not cold..it would be warm but not to hot..i miss the weather so bad..i miss the people the food i misss everything i miss my ranch..i just want to sit out in the meadow and think and smell the fresh air and write out there..i miss my family..the security of the friends that ive none since birth..i called one last night..and told her about the drama thats been going on..she made me laugh the first time i had felt my self feel good about something in days..she told me about her boyfriend...and how they all miss
my "american rock" ..we talked for almost 2 hours..after words i called sebastian and talked to him for a while..he misses me..he said..i laughed..i miss our long talks..carlos n camilo..miss me just as much..and my hot bootydancein lol..so many inside jokes..
Evums sick :( get better doll...
i miss dance..i think im going to start again..i miss it..
ahhhh want freakin taco bell..lol...im craving it preety bad
lifes...so shitty at the moment..fuck!
-DREa |
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| always on time |
[Oct. 25th, 2004|06:08 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  busy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | watching mtv | ] |
I NEED TO GET AHOLD OF VIRGINIA..IIKE NOW!! |
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| JUST LET ME POUR MY HEART OUT |
[Oct. 24th, 2004|09:13 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | discontent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | hotel california ; eagles | ] |
I cant belive..im going through such stuped drama..i honestly feel like im in ben hill once again..with the "shit talking" and what not..
she says shes my best friend...but she treats me like shit..yells at me for something i didnt do and says " i thought you were my best friend' some times i still cant belive you were the one that held me through that awful night the one that promised me you would always be there no matter what..and when i confront you..you say no im your best friend why would i do sucha thing...so many ppl yes even her have told me that you talk behind my back..it really hurts..because im not the only one your hurting i no that..i miss the old you the one that was so simple the one who didnt care about anything..the one that sat and wrote poetry and drew awesome pictures the one that
stayed by my side all through the night i miss you..your words were "fuck you"..did i get a word in? no...of corse not. my opinion doesnt matter to any more...i wish it did..i just wish we could be like before..i fucking miss it..i wish we wouldnt of started seperating i wish we would still call each other and talk for hours i wish boys and drugs and skool and everything else would just fade away so it could be like it was once before..i miss you...cant you see..they all no about the "sex" on your part..but lieing about the sex on my part come on...you told martin i had sleept with like a million ppl thanks for makeing me feel like a whore..it was 4 people..that have respect for me..and i have respect for them. who cares about that shit you dont see me bitching about it..rember watchin practical magic ? rember..everything that
was said and done that night.?if we forgive our faults..then maybe just maybe everything wil be ok
-rember we said wed be friends till the end
On another note i hung out with dustin and scott and jeff n skrillex today over at dustins i played some drums..and hung out..tryed cleaning dustins room..ummm i tried it really didnt work..to messy. i hung out there till around 6 from like 11 in the morning lol..
NO DONT SHOWER NO DONT CHANGE COME IN YOUR PAJAMAS! lmao..nice right? -skrillex- lol..say your A BITCH SAY YOUR A BITCH!! lmao its so funny that little kid telling us that story great times. so her names Dancer? aye??
-DrEa |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 23rd, 2004|09:44 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | mellow | ] |
| [ | music |
| | TAKING BACK SUNDAY | ] |
hey...
im at skrillexs house chiinchillen...
im gunna hang out with scotty...and dustin
and durr skrillexs...i like scotty..
and i guess he likes me...and well he asked me out tonight on my bed while he was makeing a ciggeret..virginia called and was like are you guys going out?..i looked at him with a dumb girly smile
he yelled yes on the fone. i felt my cheeks go red...when we were out side he put his arms around me..it was sucha good feeling to have some one hold me :: forgive the emoness:: but its true..
skrillex n dustin are going out FINALLY...we locked in my room ALONE..and waited and waited and waited till one of them would
make a move on eachother FINALLY..succces!!lol...it was
a good night i guess except for Genia called me saying i was talking about her sex life..i was like..:( no???? she said EVERYONE SAID I TALKED ABOUT IT..
Andrea: she hates me because she thinks i talk about her
sex life
John: that would be deej who brags = yea...but w.e shes like she thought you were my best friend..buttt she asks the whole world how they put up with my shit...so w.e i dont care thats just fucking saddd it hurts any way goig to go watch jay n silent bob
ChAooooo -DrEa |
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